You know, i've given so much advice to people, I sometimes wish I can take my own. ;u;
Ugh, this has been bothering me for awhile, but sadly, there is nothing I can really do about it but vent a little.
When looking around, finding new amazing animators, I always get so happy finding such talented people. Their work is so amazing, their animations are so smooth and creative, it makes me really happy to be awe stricken by fantastic artwork.
Then a sickening thought hit me. "They probably despise me."
Why would I think that?
They are talented beyond compare to my work, they work harder, their work is much more cleaner and anatomy proportionate, and so forth, yet they may have only 1k subs, or less than that. But if there was a chance they ever saw my work and saw how much feedback I get, what do you think their reaction would be?
I've actually had friends tell me that before they have ever spoke to me, that they believed I would be a totally different person, a snob, a drama queen, egotistical, etc. Ever since I was informed of that, that fear just always laid inside of me.
When I see talented animators, all I think about is wanting to help them grow, I want to share what I have with them, I comment, like their videos, subscribe to them so many people will see. I try the best I can to share, but sometimes its just not satisfying...I feel like I didn't do enough to help...
And even witnessing amazing animators talk badly behind my back about my work, it just hurts a bit, but honestly, im not surprised. I won't lie, sometimes I get a little annoyed when I see someone get instantaneous recognition for such belittled work as well...It's just something that will happen.
I can't change this, I can't change the way people feel about me, but that's okay, everyone has their own opinions and thoughts on people. I just want to let you know that I do feel guilty about the recognition I get, I feel like its really undeserved compared to many other talented artists, but I try to share it...the best I can.
That's the end of my sleepless vent, thank you for reading.